reflections

Woooo!

So Christmas and New Year's came and went.  As did my good tracking habits and watching what I was eating!

That's alright, I'll get back on track I hope.  I have a 6pm Tuesday class this semester which unfortunately means that I will not be able to go to my normal meeting.  Hopefully I can at least catch her Sunday morning meetings every so often because, well, I have realized that I need the meetings to be successful.  And after trying out other leader's meetings, I've also realized that it's not worth going to a meeting unless it is Tracy. 

I went to a memorial service today for one of my clients.  While there I saw one of my WW friends.  She was there with her best childhood friend and she told me that her friend lost 120 lbs on Weight Watchers--TWICE.

That really struck a chord with me.  I realized how hard it must have been to have lost all that weight, gained it back, then lose it again.  I originally lost 43 pounds on WW but then gained about 20 of it back.  I keep harping on the fact that I gained a bunch of it back and have to get back to where I was.  I just realized that you know what?  It doesn't matter what I've already lost or gained or whatever.  It's just what I have to get to.  I just need to keep plugging along and lose it again. 

I decided that I'm going to treat this as a new attempt at WW.  I'm going to let go of any accomplishments that I had achieved before, and re-earn them!  Maybe setting a 5% and 10% goal will help keep me focused as I will have a smaller goal to work toward.  60 pounds is just such a huge number and it's daunting and I think that's why I am having trouble working towards it... I feel like I am making little progress and have so much left to go.

I guess I've just gotta do this in baby steps after all.  One day at a time.